Whoops

I haven't updated this in a while. I had a busy weekend, kind of.
Saturday my mother and I took her car to get serviced and have her actuator looked at. She had to come home with a loaner car for the week and she's pretty upset about that. She always complains about having to miss work... slash she complains about everything involving money. She worries too much and it doesn't change no matter how much I pray. It's really discouraging.
From the Lexus dealership we went to the Sawgrass Mills mall and got a few things. It's funny how the only things that ever appeals to me when I'm shopping are dresses haha. We had stopped to get smoothies and ran into my my mother's sister's family, so we went to visit them after dinner. We went to The Melting Pot for an early Mothers' Day dinner, which took forever to complete. My mother and I stayed at my aunt's house until midnight and didn't get home until about 2 am, my excuse for not updating Saturday. It was a decent day overall.
Sunday my mom had realized that she forgot her work keys in her car at the dealership, so she spent all morning retrieving them. When she got back, I drove us over to the beach in Jenson where we stayed for a couple hours. The water was the calmest and clearest I've ever seen an ocean look. It looked like one giant piece of glass and that piece of glass brought a lot of peace looking into it... or at least until mullet fish started swimming toward me. I hate my fear of fish. My fears seem almost absurd at times. Afterwards, we went to the mall to get new flip flops. Sometimes that area seems like such a nice place to live, but I think I'd much rather move to a place that already feels like home.
My cousin and I have decided to room together at Nova, since she's going as well. Although, she's a year behind me. I'll just worry about that when the time comes to move.
While I was there, my aunt gave me my birthday present since I hadn't seen them in about a year. It was a bunch of stuff from Hottopic and I was pretty amused. My interests have changed so much and so fast, I have no idea how anyone is able to keep up. The only sound satisfaction I've found thus far is Him, and I guess it's supposed to be that way.
My mom didn't seem to be that happy with her Mothers' Day present, but I liked it a lot.
(the website is being incredibly gay and won't let me add any pictures, so I'll just be adding links)
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My mother bought me a new clothing iron, so I finished my art club shirt. The tie dye didn't work out the way I wanted it to in the beginning, so I just tie dyed the whole thing. I really like it, I just want to make the colors brighter, so I'll take pictures of it when I do so.
I also put a bunch of new music up too... well, it's mostly The Acorn, but I love it.
Monday I sat around all day. I don't really like sitting around any more. But I was late to school that day... like 2.5 hours late haha. I'm tired of school.
I also tried to get another application from GoodWill, but the lady, who didn't speak very good English, said that there wasn't any. I think she was lying.
Yesterday Zach and I finally opened our Etsy account! Yay! We'll start posting things on it soon. The fees kind of suck, but I know it'll be a lot of fun.
At school, my flip flop broke, so I had to hobble to 3 dollar parking lot like an idiot. No fun.
It was self portrait Tuesday and I didn't take a picture. Bummout.
When I was at Zach's house that day, they got a phone call that (I guess) D.C.F. was going to take Zach's little adopted sister away from his family and give her back to her terrible mother who was just released from prison. It made me really sad to see Zach cry the way he did. I told my mom about it and she reminded me of when I was about to turn 3 and she got arrested for cocaine and a D.U.I.. I really don't know what would have happened to me if I didn't grow up with my own parents. Also, I don't really know how the officials could say that she won't remember this because she's too young. I remember my mother being taken away and having to stay with my grandparents. It's all just really upsetting. She means so much to them.
Today was pretty crazy. I was late to school again and was called up to the dean's office where I almost got expelled for all my tardies. I love Mrs. Cantral, even though I still have to have an "extended day". I don't feel like spending an extra two hours at school, picking up trash with my anatomy teacher.
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I am always late to everything and I never get anything accomplished any more. That's about to change.
Mom asked me if I was sexually active for the first time today. It was so awkward... I loved it. Funniest thing EVER.
I love keeping up with the Johnny Cupcakes blog. He wears his own clothing too, which is pretty neat. I want to make some sort of clothing label the way he did. It always looks like so much fun and he takes some pretty neat pictures sometimes.
I want to do something that gets noticed. I want to do something that stands out. I have no motivation with the exception of these wants. Sometimes I think that my wants are unattainable for me because of this.
There's other little things I could discuss, but I've been working on this one update for a couple days and it's been at least 4 since I've last updated anything at all, so it's time to post this thing.