Monday, June 30, 2008

Everyone's Leaving

I hate anime.
Yesterday I made this pretty cool headband out of lace, stretchy string, beads, buttons, and a silk flower. I think it turned out really pretty.

Today I made soup for my mom with tons of vegetables and some ground buffalo. It was pretty tasty.
I also took pictures of the current state of the addition. I only uploaded 3 though; I took quite a few.


There is ice cream in the freezer waiting for me to eat it.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

My mother and I went out to eat last night. It was really good and it was great to get out of the house, even if it was just for a little while. It's close to being Sunday and the auto repair shop has yet to call. Monday they will be closed all day and Tuesday, my mother and I are going to see Motley Crue. I might get it Tuesday, though. I hope; I wanted to see Katie before she leaves for France on Thursday.
I've been having terrible headaches, stomache aches, dizzyness, and other physical discomforts.
I really want to watch Ratatouille, Dracula, and some partionally fictional movie about the Hollocaust and war, and make Burlesque type masks.
Tomorrow there will be another Law & Order marathon. Yay!
I really miss cooking and doing assignments.
I never took pictures of the current state of the addition; I keep forgetting. Though, my mom and I did roller skate in it today. It was terribly hot and humid out.
National Tresure is on! I love it.
I'm so awfully tired, though.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

6/26/08

Yesterday I got to see Zach for the first time in probably 2 weeks. It was nice to see someone other than my mother and the men working on the house.
Last night a Law & Order marathon started and it has consumed my life since.
I had another wierd dream, this time about someone different. It was really uncomfortable.
I was thinking, and I really need to get on this Bible Study thing. I'm hoping that I can get Kristine, Katie, Cassidy, Jessica, and Megan to let me preach to them, but probably not all of them at once since some of them are going to be taking trips out of state, and some out of the country.
The guys at the auto-repair place are currently painting my car and it should be ready tomorrow. Too bad Zach left for Orlando, I think, for the weekend. I need to start being more social anyway.
Lately I've been pretty into researching chemtrails. By putting aluminum oxide and barium (carcinogens), researchers think that the government is either trying to kill off people to keep population down, or trying to keep the population able to be easily controlled. It's really scary sounding.

Hooray for USA marathons.

“Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the LORD.”- Leviticus 19:18

I'm working on that.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

No Bueno

My life is awefully boring. The construction workers listen to country... loudly. Zach's supposed to be coming over at 2. I've been up for over 7 hours already. It's SO BORING.

This is my self portrait for yesterday.

I still need to take pictures of the addition progress. I can't wait to get the car back on Friday.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Chewy Pudding

Dang, I keep putting this off.
Since June 12th, I have:
for the most part, stayed home, by myself.
done tons of chores.
eaten tons of spaghettios.
had a wierd sleep schedual that would make me wake up in between 3 and 4, and only have a few hours of sleep. I'm starting to sleep more now, though. But I'm still getting up pretty early.
gotten my report card. My mom was really angry that I have a 2.6 unweighted GPA (3.1 weighted). a 2.6 is what, the lowest possible B you can get? I mean yeah, I probably should work on bringing it up to at least a 3.0 (I'm guessing that's about an 85% B), but a 2.6 (80% B?) isn't worth the outrage she was in.
missed out on senior pictures. The school didn't send me anything to go, so I guess I just won't be in the year book. Bummout.
went to the mall with my mom twice. The first ended in a failed attempt to get a new phone after spending an hour and a half at the kiosk and some pretty good manicotti at Olive Garden. The second, I finally got a phone. It's pretty amazing. We also checked out Lenscrafters, which was pretty cool, too. Might get some new purple frames for the new school year. Afterwards, we went to Panera and they have a pretty good Strawberry Poppyseed salad. No chicken. Yay!
had a lot of weird dreams about the same person. After not having dreams in a year or two, I'm a bit suspicious that God's trying to tell me something.
been listening to the extremely loud construction. The addition is going along fine, but I can't use any electrical appliance when the carpenters are using the power saw; keeps blowing the fuse.
decided on the layout of my many back tattoos. I still want a really big gnarly and dead tree, representing the tree of the knowledge of good and evil; as well as a light and dark coloured bear on either side of the tree at the base, all dueling-like, that represet good and evil, as well as the two people who have influenced my life the most (one in a positive way and one in a negative way) because they both have/had the nickname of "bear"; and now I want two sparrows above the tree, one on each shoulder, holding a banner that has Genisis 2:17 on it ("but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die."; NIV version, I'm not sure if I want to get the old King James version instead). I'm expecting it to be pretty amazing.
had surprisingly amazing hygene skills for someone who does not step foot out of the house for days at a time.
figured out a lot about myself. I seem to be learning more and more about who I am, and who I used to be, all the time.
worked on Kathleen's birthday gift, even though her birthday was on the 7th. It's still not done - I haven't made/gotten things to put inside it. Though, it did take forever to make this one part. I sewed the zippy part of a plasic bag to the top of it!
took several pictures for self portrait Tuesday at sunrise last Tuesday. I chose the first, Zach chose the second. I need to take some for today as well.
made a couple bracelets and started on some others.

This is all I can remember right now. I'll probably make another post today, including pictures of the current state of addition.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Woah!

It's been 9 days since my last update, I believe. Unfortuatly, I don't feel like typing 9 days worth of entries, so for now I'm just going to post Proverbs 31. It's about how a woman/wife of the Lord should be, and I've lately become obsessed with trying to modernize the verses and become this woman.

Proverbs 31
Sayings of King Lemuel
1 The sayings of King Lemuel—an oracle
his mother taught him:
2 "O my son, O son of my womb,
O son of my vows,
3 do not spend your strength on women,
your vigor on those who ruin kings.
4 "It is not for kings, O Lemuel—
not for kings to drink wine,
not for rulers to crave beer,
5 lest they drink and forget what the law decrees,
and deprive all the oppressed of their rights.
6 Give beer to those who are perishing,
wine to those who are in anguish;
7 let them drink and forget their poverty
and remember their misery no more.
8 "Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves,
for the rights of all who are destitute.
9 Speak up and judge fairly;
defend the rights of the poor and needy."
Epilogue: The Wife of Noble Character
10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I Feel Like A Sea Monster

I went to bed at 7 this morning and slept until 2 this afternoon. I'm hoping to get to bed by 1 tonight... haha that's not happening.
I was supposed to make bracelets this week. Maybe I'll start on it tonight.
I don't know what I want to cook for tomorrow. George is coming home with Zach tomorrow and they're supposed to be walking over. It'll be awkward.
I got to talk to Joel last night. That was indeed epic.
I need to make money, start exercising again, and make more masks. I'm doing a series of them.
Tara will always be my favourite person. She needs a vacation, though. Here that, Tara? You need a vacation.
The past will always come back to haunt me. Whether that is a good thing or a bad thing, I'm not sure of, but I'm amused regardless.

It's Been A Few Days

I haven't done anything at all these past few days. I sleep all day and stay up all night.
I have nothing to say.
Life sucks.

5 hours with a ball point pen:

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Interesante

Today's verse from BibleGateway.com

“The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights. For the director of music. On my stringed instruments.”- Habakkuk 3:19

FYI: This Sucks.

After doing Megan's hair and makeup for Amber's birthday party, I watched 'The Mist' and 'Girl, Interrupted' with Clayton and my mom. Watching the latter reminded me a lot of myself.
I wish my life prior to this moment could have been simpler, but I'm sure everyone else would like the same. Zach's beginning to add to the chaos. I think it's God telling me that it's time to let go.
"Test everything. Hold on to the good." - Joel the bear.
I think I crashed my car because He wants me to be more social. Seeing as I won't have a car for a bit, I'm going to have to bum rides to get out of my house, which is something I'm so accustomed to now and cannot stand being here for very long.
I become more and more surprised at the reactions of others the more I think about them. I've come to the conclusion that I will not find any compassion among any of these people who live in this world. I've decided to let my strength define me.
Joel hasn't called yet. I feel a little hopeless. I depend too much on him, but I don't feel like I have much else of physical means. By spiritual means, I feel I am abundant, but I tend to forget the feeling it gives me too easily and am quickly wound up in myself again.
I really want Yann Tiersen on my iPod. Or some melodramatic showtunes. Something instrumental. Something I can think to without my thoughts getting tangled up in annoying lyrics.

Friday, June 6, 2008

Summer Skin and Bad Luck v2.0



I just got off the phone with my new claim adjuster. Unfortunately, I was too in shock to take a picture of my vehicle. They say I'll get it back in less than a week. I'm so upset.

My room is messy. Time to clean.

Summer Skin and Bad Luck

I lost the stuffed pig that took six hours to make. A dump truck wrecked the front end of my car. Zach's gone for a week and I can't get hold of him. My forehead and shoulders are peeling.
Things aren't going great and I don't want to talk about it.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Little More Awkward Than It Seems

I'm steadily getting more and more excited. I feel like baking and making bracelets. I plan on making as much stuff for Etsy as I can while Zach is gone so we can put stuff up when he gets back. I'm also almost done with "Pocket" the sock monster.
Tomorrow I want to make cupcakes after exams. I have to take the math and anatomy exam tomorrow, and I'm not all that worried. I took the a.p. history one today and I know I passed - probably with a D. Good enough for me.
Zach's leaving the day after tomorrow. I can't wait until he comes back home with the infamous George. It'll be nice to finally meet him. I need to cook before he comes!
This next week, if I can get my car back, I think I'll try to hang out with the gang a little. It's been so long since I've spent time with Clayton. Cupcake baking and basketball sounds fun. Johnny Cupcakes has taken over my life.
I'm still waiting on this sunburn to go away and I'm getting pretty anxious. My face feels really tight.
I also need to see Cassidy, Bradley, Kathleen, and Sarah a.s.a.p.! I think I'll plan a picnic for next week. Looking for shapes in the clouds is my favourite. Maybe even some bowling in Jensen with Cassidy.
Anyway, I have to go to school at 7, an hour earlier than I'm used to. Bed time it is!

Monday, June 2, 2008

Soma

“so Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people; and he will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but to bring salvation to those who are waiting for him.”- Hebrews 9:28

There's no need to worry about mistakes.

I got to school half way through my english semester exam, so I have to stay after tomorrow and finish it. Tomorrow is also a.p. history semester exam day and I have yet to study. I'll do it in the morning. I was supposed to go to sleep at 9.
I saw Tara today for the first time in a long time. Fun. Everything and everyone has changed and it all feels so strange in a bad way.
Zach and I are getting pretty into this sock creature making thing. I'm hoping to have my first one done by tomorrow night.
Not really much to write. I'm excited about the future, especially the near future - last day of school is Wednesday.
I'm thinking about one day going to visit Derek and re-attempt to bring God into his life. He needs it more than ever and more than anyone else I know. I feel bad for him sometimes, though I probably shouldn't.
I'm getting wrestless again. I don't like not knowing what will happen, but I guess it's God testing my faith in him. I need more mind-numbing activities.
My sunburn on my face and shoulders gets in the way of things. My jaw hurts and I have to pee.
'Till tomorrow.

Slump

In a slump. I haven't done anything of much accomplishment in quite some time. I tried sketching a few things tonight and they came out pretty crappy. I would feel so much better if I were able to produce an exact image from my mind. It's filled with embarrassing mistakes, but I still don't regret anything. I have what I need to make me happy, but there's no way of working through this slump. I probably shouldn't worry about it. Though, I envy Zach's ability. But I am glad that I've found what I want; I realize it more and more everyday.
I didn't really do anything at school Friday. Checked out early with Zach to get Taco Bell. Haven't been working on a summer Bible study either, aside from school. The days have all become a blur.
I worked on the sock creature and snuck out to argue with Andrew at Zach's Saturday. Terrible night. I hope he leaves soon.
Today I went to the Dubois Park beach with Zach and his family. I really enjoyed it, even if the beach sucked, I got slightly sunburned, we had to leave extremely early, and I didn't take any pictures when I should have. I haven't been taking pictures of anything lately. Slump indeed.
It was nice to have had spent a little time with my mom this weekend. We made "banana boats" and watched Cloverfeild and Mad Money. Next weekend I think we'll be going to spend a day at Universal. Hooray!
It was raining a few minitues ago and I know I'm going to have trouble sleeping. It's almost 1 and I don't feel it at all.