Dos Compadres

I forgot to mention that my senior pictures were taken a little while ago. I hate them all except this one, which still isn't all that great.I am going to look like a retard in the yearbook. Oh well.
Didn't get to see Zach and I might not see him until the week after next. Bust.
Tonight was dinner at Pueblo Viejo's and movie night with Mom. We watched pretty much my favourite movie, "The Waterfall" then I watched one of the prequels to my favourite book in the 8th grade, V.C. Andrew's "Rain". It was great to watch them both and I really feel like heating up my leftovers.
I overwhelm myself with the things I want to accomplish and my mom put me on sleeping pills. I don't think I can stay awake much longer.
It was a wonderful evening.

That's It.

I waste my days and it's really aggrivating.
I watched 'Planet of the Apes' twice. I love it.
I have a new obsession with the sea and it's creatures, mainly the cephalopod family (but mostly the nautilus). I want to live in the nautilus house.

“Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely, who conducts his affairs with justice.”- Psalm 112:5

That's it.

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I haven't felt like doing this in a while.
Well I went to see my dad on Saturday, which went okay I suppose. There was a bunch of family members there, so it made it a little awkward, especially since they were talking for him. It was terrible to see him in that condition though; he had trouble staying awake and he had the worst case of jaundice I've ever seen, even his eyes were noticeably yellow. Which kind of made me feel bad about the flower bouquet I had picked out for him - yellow yellow yellow. And all of the machines and needles and blood stains on his gown made me feel really sorry for him. I want to take him some sort of gift soon. Though, fortunately he says he's been saved, and that's all I could hope for right now. I have no idea what his chances for surviving are, but I think they're better than they seem. I have a feeling that all of my praying is going to pay off eventually.
My mom and I also did a little shopping Saturday, but I've kind of been thinking about just making some of my own clothes. I've watched every episode of Threadbanger in the past two days and there's a lot of ideas. I have also been working on a couple things that Zach needs to put on our Etsy for me. He should also stop thinking that he can't do things.
I need to start doing LTLYM assignments again. I found this cool website that I want to be a part of too called You-Are-Beautiful.com and it sends free stickers to those who send in a self-adressed stamped envelope to put in public places. I think it sounds like a pretty cool project.
Next school year, I don't want to be in the drawing & painting 2 class, but rather the portfolio class, so Zach's suggested that I make a mini portfolio this summer to show the teacher so that I might be able to skip a year in that particular program. I'm hoping it works. So hopefully I'll be posting up some new artwork sometime soon.
Tomorrow I have to make more soup and I'm going to see if I can get with Clayton to make some camo tie dye. Maybe I'll get up before 4 pm. Let's just hope.

Cool Titles Are Overrated

Pictures I took in Marco Island with my phone. I would have taken more from more places other than the balcony, but my being sick ness wasn't a big fan of that.

I must get a picture of Zach's shaved head tomorrow. Going to visit Dad in the morning in Ft. Pierce, then go to WPB for a little shopping with Zach if he gets back in time. If not, BATMAN! Yes!

I really really really really really really really really want this camera. Fisheye Holga.

I have a feeling that I'm not going to get any sleep tonight.

Lomography.com

I don't remember much of last week, aside from being with Zach and getting Shrek's tongue pierced, but this week I've been in Marco Island without acess to the internet from a computer. Unfortunately I was sick the entire time, and still am, leaving me cooped up in the hotel room all week. I was hoping to spend tons of time on the beach, but of course the weather wouldn't allow it either. In fact, the bridge into the island was closed down due to the amount of rainfall. But the dinners were good, the only time I really ever came out of the room. At one dinner I got the honor of meeting and speaking with a very powerful member of ACOA (adult children of alcoholics).
Though, while there I received a pretty unfortunate call from my grandmother about my father. He's been I.C.U. in Ft. Pierce for a little over a week now, waiting for a liver transplant. Doctors have informed my family that he's not going to make it. He's now hooked up to a dialysis machine to support his kidney failure. They say he has less than a month, maybe less than a week left to live. I really need to see him, with a Bible. I'm not really sure as to how I feel about it all yet.
There's a lot of crazy things going on. The Who is my new obsession, Courney Love my hero, a man gives birth to a baby, and batman sunglasses and a lomography fisheye camera are at the top of my most wanted list. More Etsy items; Robert Smith, Chuck Norris, and Courtney Love masks, and pictures coming up.
I wish I were tired.

Temporary

"Change. it has the power to uplift, to heal, to stimulate, surprise, open new doors, bring fresh experience, and create excitement in life. Certainly it is worth the risk."
- Leo Buscaglia


"Jesus looked at them and said, 'With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.'"
Matthew 19:26

Misleading

Yesterday was a bad day. But today, Zach and I put up a bracelet that I finished today, one like the headband I had made. I want to make lots more. I'm pretty proud of them. We also planned out and got started on a couple of other projects.
Tomorrow is the day that I take my senior pictures and I have a terrible feeling that they will come out horrible. I really need a haircut. I'm due next month for my annual haircut any way.
There are too many things that I want to do. I feel unfulfilled.
I should work on improving my vocabulary. I miss speaking in Spanglish.

My nerves will always get the best of me.